If you are a parent, you could immediately relate to my title, right?
Then you should also be able to picture this: Me dancing my happy dance!
May I be more honest?
I have been counting down spring break before it officially began. Seriously. Anxiety started to kick in when I received my daughter’s activity calendar that her punctual kindergarten teacher sends every month.
There it was.
Bold markings covering five days to unambiguously remind me that there will be NO SCHOOL.
And who is counting the four weekend days? (certainly not me)
Just in case you missed the math, I have been at home with a constantly seeking noisy activities six-year-old girl, along with a needs mommy attention ALL the time one year-old toddler, for NINE consecutive days!
And again, whose counting?
Today is the day that the countdown has ended. At least I think so. I’ll cover this later.
So, what did I do with my adorable cuties during spring break? I’m so glad you asked.
How about a staycation – not by choice, of course.
I’m sure there were many families on a real vacation that included a theme park or a fantastic cruise and yes, I do envy you; especially, if you were on a relaxing boat that allowed you to turn the noise off if but only for a couple hours each day.
Oh how I would have traded anything to dine in the middle of the ocean, music playing in the background with the stars and waves as my scenery if but only 30 minutes.
Heck, I would have bargained for a night full of restful sleep!
This is How I Spent My Spring Break
Every single morning around 2:30, my 14-month old alarmingly awakes me out of my semi-sleep to broadcast through her superbaby lungs that she is ready for a feeding.
After she satisfies her tummy and assures herself that I am not leaving her presence, she falls asleep, leaving me up to find tv entertainment at 3 a.m. And when I manage to close my eyes in peace, right at the break of day like clockwork is my hungry kindergarten.
Come rain or shine, sleet or snow, school or no school…my slender six-year-old is going to maintain her breakfast schedule. Now, I am thankful that she has a healthy appetite and is determined not to miss the most important meal of the day.
And I understand why.
She needs all of her nutrients for the burst of energy she uses in a day. When I tell you this little darling of mine found activities to keep her going from dusk to dawn, believe me!
Now, apparently my amateur mother wit, misguided me into thinking that sisters would gladly keep one another company (I felt that sarcastic smile you just gave me). My oldest daughter is truly a great little helper. She always receives accolades about being a leader at school and church. So of course, she implements her strong will personality with her sister to remind her who is older.
But because she underestimates the will power of her baby sister, approximately 15 times in one hour throughout the day, I had to hear:
“Mommy! Hanna is being mean to me.”
“Mommy! Hanna just scratched me.”
“Mommy! Hanna just hit me.”
These two kept me wondering, “GOD Am I Called to Motherhood?”
And of course, when forced to move out of my minor moments of enjoying time to myself for things like ugh to eat, to check on these wonderful sisters, I find a cute baby Hanna full of a big smile looking as innocent as ever.
Don’t be fooled by the pretty face.
While spying on them a couple of times before announcing my presence in the room, I saw this toddler in action!
Which brings me back to my next dilemma…
Can I Keep My Toddler While Working from Home?
(In my spirit, I just felt someone lol)
Seriously. I think every mother has for what ever reason, dreamed about or strongly considered the luxury of being a stay-at-home mom. Well, when I have considered this now reality for so many moms, “work” was always attached to it.
As a writer, I have always thought this would be the perfect scenario. Of course, that was when a primary job in my field of social services was in place with the option to be flexible.
Well, I didn’t realize that life events, family dynamics and health factors would cause me to have to work from home. Don’t get me wrong. It is a great opportunity to be able to work from home and earn income.
But that is just the thing.
Whereas the workforce is growing open to telecommute positions, they are not just handing them out and there are some positions that just will not fit the remote location. In the meantime, bills are due, debt demands to be paid and kids, well they don’t really care what’s going on: They must receive their care and attention.
But working from home while caring for a busy toddler can be difficult. In fact, it can be down right stressful. I have been boosting my ego up for nine days on how I can make this work. After the many interruptions while even trying to write this post, I got to confess, I have doubts.
Kuddos to all the stay-at-home moms who are working (either for someone else, themselves or both). I honestly don’t know how you have been doing it. If you have advice, let me know and definitely keep me in your prayers!
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